passion and ambiguity

this day was all about ‘passion’ and ‘ambiguity’. to be more specific: the morning was about passion and the evening dealt with ambiguity. reason is the preparation work for training courses on these topics. well and in the afternoon i spend one and a half hour watching bloopers from seinfeld (seasons  6,7,8 and 9) played guitar for half an hour and made 2 pancakes for myself. not sure if this is really valuable information but the picture is anyway complete. not that I have an enormous amount of readers but you don’t want people later sending emails asking you about your afternoon activities.

anyway: passion and ambiguity!

i became more and more aware how closely these two issues are connected. passion is a very ambiguous thing and ambiguity is in many cases strongly related to your passion.

or: maybe the biggest ambiguity in our life is how to deal with our passions. if you just don’t pay attention to your passions life could be quite simple to live. you just do what everybody else does. you go with the flow, follow a decent education, get yourself a normal not to challenging job, find a partner, produce children, relax in the evening and the weekend and try to deal with the challenges that life will bring anyway. and of course sometimes there will be these moments that you want to jump out… to travel the world with a backpack… to quit your job and become a musician singing songs in pubs all over the world … to spend the rest of your life growing plants in an enormous garden… to climb a huge mountain… to start a new life with a new love… to start your own pub or restaurant… to move to iceland or brazil…

but then you think one more time and laugh about yourself: aaaah these silly passions.

what however when we do follow our passions? so many people are telling you these days to follow your passion! but what when we do?  immediately we will find ourselves in quite ambiguous situations. if you have only one big passion things could be a bit more easier, depending of course on the passion. when your big and one and only passion from being a child is to be for example a post(wo)man or a dancer you can work on that and you might have a big chance to get there. still… if you lack any sense of rhythm the royal ballet might not want you. but most of us don’t have one ever lasting passion. we have more… we change and get new ones. when is the moment something becomes really a passion? what are the quality criteria for a real passion? how many passions can you follow at the same time without running around like a complete idiot? will you still be loved if you run around climbing mountains, traveling to brazil, starting a new love, playing the guitar in a californian pub  and only talking to your plants?

it’s ambiguous. to be honest my preference goes to following your passions as much as possible. but how much do i do that? do i do that enough? how much change and ambiguity can i handle? should i sit here writing a blog now… or should i…. whatever!